I simply don't know how to be friends with him. I guess I cant speculate what our relationship will look like. I know he wants to see me, stay in contact with me but I don't know if that is going to be twice a year or twice a month. I will have to wait and see how our relationship evolves. I'm getting a divorce, so I am very confused right now about my feelings. That's not going to help. Whatever I do, I don't want to push him away....any contact with him is better than none. I trust him, and respect him, so I will follow his lead. As much as I want to be with him in a relationship, as much as I think that would be screwed up, I am not going to rule anything out at this point.
I'm just going to keep loving him, and accept whatever hand is dealt as hard as that will be.