If you're slipping back down into suicidal thoughts, reaching out to your T is a good thing. Just out of pure human feeling, T's don't want their patients to harm themselves. If you need help, it's better to reach out than to do something regrettable.

It only becomes a problem if patients do it manipulatively, just to get attention or to create chaos. Some people do that. But that doesn't sound like you, Jordy. I've read many of your posts and you sound like someone who's honestly struggling and trying to get help.

If you're slipping back toward suicide, it's better to ask for help than to suffer in silence. Take care.