I can relate to all of what you're saying. There was a time I couldn't walk through a mall without imagining grabbing the next man I see and dragging him into the bathroom. Or soliciting hookups while my family was in shambles. I fortunately dodged any actual cheating during that time but I was emotionally cheating?? No I didn't have an emotional connection. Not sure what you would call it, enough to get me in trouble and really hurting my husband.

I'm on the constant teetor of do I have bp or do I just have bad coping skills. Then a mood comes out of nowhere (not triggered) and I'm like is this what they mean about mood swings???