I can understand. There are many words that are difficult for me. Some I can say a synonym, some I can't say at all. Some I'm okay with hearing, others will send me into a complete breakdown. The word "love" is a difficult word for me to say and hear when it comes to relationships. I can't say any "private" body part words and I cringe when I hear them. There is really only one word (and its synonyms) that I cannot hear. My T knows not to ever bring up the topic or say any words relating to it.

I think sometimes we just want to get past the struggle of words. I mean, technically, words are just letters put together to communicate something. But the meaning behind the words (not just the definition) can be so powerful. So while there might be the desire to push ourselves to say something, the fact that the thought of saying something is already overwhelming might be our mind and body communicating that we're actually not ready.