What you are going through is a serious grieving process & what you are feeling about the loss of the life you had planned & the need for taking meds every day (even if it is a treatable cancer).......you are going through a terrible loss of what you had planned for your life......it's right to feel angry....it's right to cry......it's right to feel all the emotions that you are going through right now.......

So many people are ignorant that when things like this happen, it's normal for the person to feel horrible & cry & take time off work.......you need time to yourself to process all of this cause it's not just something that normal people ACCEPT without that horrible feeling of loss for all the plans & the future life you were sure was going to be yours.

Remember for right now, your mind has a lot of processing that it's needing to do to sort through all your feelings & all the new information & what it REALLY means to your life & how it's going to IN REALITY effect the future life you have already planned.....what changes will be necessary & what you can go ahead with as you originally planned.

UGH......that's a lot for any mind to have to process on top of all the other issues & reactions of others. Cry when you feel like it....it's ok to tell people that no cancer is a good kind of cancer even when there are treatments. It would be normal to wear a mask to keep their illnesses away from you as I'm sure the treatment will lower your immune system also.......It's ok to feel angry...it's even NORMAL to feel those feelings.

I guess that is why support groups with others who are going through & have gone through what you are experiencing helps because you can share with those who have experienced the same horrible feelings that you are going through. It helps to know that others have the same experiences that you are going through & that you aren't alone in the experience or in your reactions you are having or how you feel about the reactions of those who have no idea what you are REALLY going through....they can't see or feel your thoughts & emotions....what's going on inside of you.

Some you might be able to share what you are going through with your thoughts & feelings....but there will always be some out there who JUST DON'T GET IT either......surround yourself with those who do at this point & filter out those who don't as much as possible

Give yourself time as there is no one who wouldn't be normally overwhelmed by everything you are going through. It takes time to find out what your new normal is actually going to be like....& it doesn't mean you have to like it in the first place. Be kind & understanding to yourself.

You are also acting normal to the stupid things that people are saying to you because they have no idea what to say & say the first thing in the tip of their tongue because they don't know better, are trying to make you feel better.