ScarletPimpernel, you have a good analogy with the diabetic medication. I completely agree with it. You wouldn't think it'd be so hard to be healthy and yet it is...

JustShakey, The way my T explained it to me was that I (we) are in a healthier place and it's different and confusing trying to navigate a place we've never been. So, we resort to old coping mechanisms, but because we are in a different place they don't have the same effect and it leaves us searching for something we can't get as easily as the way we used to. She said that it is crucial though, to implement healthy habits especially in this transition time because I guess basically it's setting up the baseline to our "new" life. Like you, I find it hard to do the simple things it takes to move forward. I can think/dream about them but when it comes to action I hold myself back. This week i'm working on replacing those not so healthy habits with better ones - her suggestion is fake it until you make it. Perhaps you could try this?

Inner_Firefly, Thank you. I think she is amazing as well. She isn't just resolved with taking me to a new place and just dropping me off; she's hand in hand on the journey of navigating through the new environment as well. I have no idea but through the grace of God how I ended up in the presence of someone so kind. Thank you for the well wishes.