I feel for you, it is hard when you're not sure what you really want to do, and you are not sure if you want to go further with the bachelor you studied. I don't know if you have a T now, but it may help to talk with someone. Your Ex T may want to do good, but just because she suggests the career path of being a T doesn't mean it truly is the best choice for you. I know you miss her and look up to her, so you can keep her suggestion in mind while you take more time to explore what you really want. Please keep hopeful and positive, these things tend to work out as time goes on and you have more time to think it through or try things until you come across something that works, sometimes it's luck and fate, trial and error, as long as you keep trying to figure it out, the answer will come eventually. Even if you start out with a job you don't love, you will learn more about what you want and what works for you. I hope this helps a little bit! I am in the same situation and still on a path to figure out what to do.