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It is supposed to feel fantastic. That desperate desire to feel good for yourself and to make sure your partner feels even better

There is the emotional and physical closeness... and both are important. Add

You know it works.
It may take time for you to find this pleasure... main thing - do not stress about it. I can say one thing. Intercourse is not supposed to hurt. I am thankful I was not abused this way. Hugs