I start with my new therapist on Tuesday. I hope everything works out too, but I'm very nervous to start with someone new.

It sounds like you really have a good t, and he seems to be really trying. It sounds like a draining session, but a good one.

I think everyone is contrary sometimes.

Part of this stood out to me. " no, that wasn't what i needed either. though... part of me (w.) can be fairly grandiose and i felt a little bit inflated then - shame."

Then you said you didn't emotionally respond to any of it.

Aren't inflation and shame emotional reactions? That just stood out to me for some reason.

Shame is a hard one for me. I can still here my mother say "You should be ashamed", and I guess I always have been. Sorry, thats off topic. I have a hard time staying on topic sometimes.

Good luck with your next session.