I don't bring the physical list in with me. I rehearse talking with her in my mind until I feel like I know what I want to say. I want to make sure there won't be any silent time in session - or wasted time. I hate the silence. I also don't want it to feel like I don't have anything worthwhile I need to work on. Maybe it is all a control thing and I'm afraid to go with the flow. I hate that deer in headlights feeling when T just stares at me in silence. It makes me feel so awkward.