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Originally Posted by The Skeezyks
Hello Hellion: I don't really have any particular suggestions for you here. I'm an older person at this point. I am married. But beyond that, I pretty-much just keep to myself. I neither have nor want friends. I don't go to concerts, to the movies, the theater, or to any other events where people gather.
I do think this kind of a lifestyle becomes easier as one ages. When I was younger, I would have found it stifling. I also don't share my mental health concerns with anyone. This is probably the most difficult part of my life situation. However, since this has been the case for my entire life, I'm used to it, even if I don't enjoy it.
In the past, I used to ruminate about how long I could continue to go on this way. It seemed as though something had to give. However, at this point, I've come to the conclusion that this is just the way it is. I'm resigned to it & satisfied to be where I am. I do think this has something to do with my personality. I've never been a particularly gregarious person. A person who needs frequent stimulation & interaction with other people would have a difficult time adjusting to my lifestyle.  |
It is strange as I do need my alone time, takes me longer to recharge from social interaction than most people...but not having the option of social interaction is problematic for me that is the bit that gets lonely...guess I would not care so much if I did not desire it but on the brightside there are at least a few people in life I get along alright with. If I didn't love music so much I probably would not bother ever going to concerts....but I admit it does get to me when I do go to a show myself and can't seem to meet anyone or really interact, even in settings with people I still end up feeling alone around people if that makes sense...but luckily when I go to a concert my main reason is the music not to meet people so that feeling usually passes once the music starts.