I'd maybe have more close friends.

I have a limit that i will not exceed or I'm just taking on more than i can emotionally manage.
Friends is a commitment that non's or everyday people seem to do effortlessly.

I just can't see it possible to have many friends with trying to balance being liked, connecting to them, having the freedom to back away unnoticed, fighting the Avie pull plus being able to come back... again unnoticed without loosing your spot.
And if that person has lots of friends well that's definitely not going to work as that's one struggling non important, self doubting with low self esteem avie against many people can manage friendships and social situations seamlessly.

Hard answering these questions as it feels like I'm complaining.
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