Got through another physio session. The touch is still intensely triggering so i asked for more exercises i can do myself to reduce how much hands-on treatment is required. Hopefully physio will feel a tiny bit easier now.

Had a pretty intense therapy session too. I'm really struggling with what this injury represents (and having that shoved in my face every time i go to physio), and with the impact physio and the fallout are having on other areas of my life, including therapy. It was helpful to talk about some of that, to soothe some raw spots, and to really connect with T and take in his words and his care.

Just wish i could shake off the ideation, which has stepped up from just thoughts to a more physical urge. Know why it's happening, know what it relates to, know that means it will pass, but it's still difficult and scary in the midst of it.