Thanks for the kind words. I'm very torn about going to that town, she has difficulties retaining friends too, and a lot of our old friends are shared friends. I don't want them to have to pick sides, and I don't want them to think ill of her. Ideally, I'd like for things to go back to normal, but that seems impossible now.

It was a mature group of people, If all sides were heard, I think we'd all agree that the situation snowballed for everyone involved and no one wanted it, including her, to end the way it did. End perhaps, but not that way. I want her to have a good life as much she wants it for me, but our neurosis always manifested in the one way the other couldn't handle. It was a pattern I didn't see until it was over.

We were really good friends, we were better friends than we were lovers. That was always true, the second we started dating we started competing for each others attention. That was pretty much the end of it.

Holy Hell, looks like I shouldn't go there after all. Thank you interwebs, for the modest step towards closure.