(((Echoes)))
It is so disconcerting and creates a heavy heart when we are not on the same page as our T. I also had a difficult session this week. This is especially true when you see a session going downhill fast from beginning to end.
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Said I didn't want to bore her. She smiled and said Thank You. She seemed, overall, just disinterested.
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I just hate it when you get that smug smile. I think this is transference, where we are looking for our "parent" to bail us out and get angry when they don't. Was it a familiar feeling in any way?
The same can be said for pointing out common themes. Again, it seems just like something a parent would do.
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I know it is there with her too and that she knows it.
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At the end she said "So, 3:00 next week?"
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What if she can't take my insecurity?
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It's her job to take your insecurity. I bet she can and will! Tell her your worries and my hunch is you will be comforted.
It sounds like your T was not in tune with your needs this week. Maybe she was thinking about the holiday. Hmmmmm....they are human and that just annoys the heck out of me too. But given how much youve connected in the past, I just think that if you can speak about these issues with her, you have a good shot at resolving them to your satisfaction.
In the meantime, be good to yourelf.
And oh, by the way, here on PC I look forward to all of your replies. They are insightful and responsive and supportive! Thank you.
