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Old Jan 23, 2015, 03:28 PM
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Originally Posted by Velouria View Post
I've also felt emotionally impervious without Wellbutrin. I didn't feel like a zombie, though. I didn't feel numb per se. I felt like I could crush serpents beneath my feet. Metaphorically. I feel powerful when I get like that. I love it. But I am also a little afraid of it.

I do have to start writing more down. It's just so overwhelming, it just keeps coming and coming and I feel sometimes like I can't keep up with it. And I do need to be more honest. That's really where I've failed, and I can't blame my psychiatrist. I have only 15 minutes with him, and each time I walk in and he asks how I am, I am like a deer in headlights and make small talk, and pretend like everything's status quo. And I believe it. My mind just goes blank.

Thank you so much for the hug, and for understanding.
No problem. Isn't that what we're all here for? Maybe you could call and ask for a longer appointment next time. I did the same exact thing you described, and it led to me admitting myself to a partial hospitalisation program. Also, I believe that kind of feeling of sort-of 'invincibility' is a symptom of bipolar disorder. Bipolar can sometimes come with delusions of grandeur and things related to that as far as I am aware.

If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.