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Originally Posted by Velouria
I've also felt emotionally impervious without Wellbutrin. I didn't feel like a zombie, though. I didn't feel numb per se. I felt like I could crush serpents beneath my feet. Metaphorically. I feel powerful when I get like that. I love it. But I am also a little afraid of it.
I do have to start writing more down. It's just so overwhelming, it just keeps coming and coming and I feel sometimes like I can't keep up with it. And I do need to be more honest. That's really where I've failed, and I can't blame my psychiatrist. I have only 15 minutes with him, and each time I walk in and he asks how I am, I am like a deer in headlights and make small talk, and pretend like everything's status quo. And I believe it. My mind just goes blank.
Thank you so much for the hug, and for understanding. 
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No problem. Isn't that what we're all here for? Maybe you could call and ask for a longer appointment next time. I did the same exact thing you described, and it led to me admitting myself to a partial hospitalisation program. Also, I believe that kind of feeling of sort-of 'invincibility' is a symptom of bipolar disorder. Bipolar can sometimes come with delusions of grandeur and things related to that as far as I am aware.
If you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.