I feel often like I'm going over the edge into depression. But that's not really what I've been talking about with my new therapist. Honestly, with only 45 minutes a week, I don't have time.

Instead we talk about scheduling my days, and ways to get a job. She acts more like a career counselor, which is great, but I sometimes feel like I can't use her for the dark times.

My darkest thought spirals seem like huge wastes of time for me, and yet I am aware that they have taken me over in the past. I need to deal with them, but I'm starting to wonder if I need a second therapist (which I can't afford) or if I need to find a way to talk about them in very short bursts.

Does anyone else struggle with this? What do you do? Do you separate 20 minutes for suicidal ideation, and the rest for career development? What can I do?