Hmm, I can relate to the don't feel, don't think mode. My mind is so flitty that I don't process what is going on in the now, so have horrible memory problems. I thought I had ADD but was tested and the doc thought it was more OCD/anxiety driven. I admit that yes, I suffer from anxiety quite a lot, but not to the point of having panic attacks, at least not with the symptoms that are typical and that you describe. Mostly, I just get frantic under pressure and can't concentrate, and become quite the *****! But what I am discovering about myself is that I have a real problem with intimacy, allowing myself to be present with others, and it is really dissatisfying. As for the bottle and opening it up and examining, yes, that happens, too. Much analysis, but never really any change. Wondering how it can ever be different...