Walk in and share with them all the things you keep doing, including your lack of med compliance, and let them know that it's a repeated behaviour. Then ask.

You want different meds, you don't want the harm from side effects, you have to wait too long to see your pdoc.... sounds like IP is by far the best route for you to go.

You'll never, ever, be stable when you keep playing with your meds. You need to stick with them for a longer duration to see if they'll actually make any difference. Which you don't seem to really ever do.

And I definitely agree that you need to take better care of yourself for you son's sake.