In the past 4 to 6 weeks you have been on here admitting to suicidal thoughts and homicidal thoughts towards your husband and son.

You are always struggling with Paranoia and report lots of psychosis. You go days unable to drink and lose the ability to understand English ?You come on here and make a thread about all these HUGE red flags.

Say your husband or son reported these things to you, what would you do ? Or are you so out of touch with reality that you would not be able to get them help they would desperately need ?

How much longer do you think you can be safe? How long do you think your family can be safe?