You are not alone on PC! A lot of us understand. I have been there in social situations, to the point of avoidance. Which isn't a good idea, but I find connection here! I read what others say and feel connected to them. Maybe that will work for you. If not don't give up trying, there are many people like you. Try, that's all it takes. Yes its hard but start online first then start putting yourself in situations than will help you feel comfortable. Good luck.