It's very hard not to borrow trouble.

New word from my friend. No more interviews. They are meeting Monday to work out some details. I replied back with some direct questions, because I'd like to know what they are pitching to prepare myself for a response - there are so many unanswered questions: pay, # hours, schedule, boss, benefits.

I am trying to remind myself not to read too much into emails. Her emails read like they want me to start next week and I just have to keep reminding myself that I can say no to that. I wasn't the one who was banging down their door for a job - they approached me... four months ago. If they are in a desperate situation now, it's not of my making.

Her emails also seem to assume that I'm just going to agree to whatever they pitch. I hope that's because she's making sure that what they offer is what I want.

Trying to psych myself up. Negotiating is not my favorite thing. I hope they just give me what I asked for without trying to nickel and dime me. There's no reason for them to come in at the low end of my range, and if they haven't hired a full time person in 8 years, what's wrong with a part-time person available in a week?

I can't believe that they said my reluctance was worrisome given their actions/lack of action. The reaction they had to continuing the contract work was also just weird. I don't understand what the issue was. It's going to cost them the same amount of money either way and there's more flexibility on their end if I am contract.

Okay, I really am borrowing trouble here. Time to do something more productive than ruminating!