Just sending some positive thoughts your way. I know this can't be easy, but think what it will be like to get those voices to shut up, to not have to mess around with your meds on your own just trying to feel better, never knowing what problems that will cause. I really believe this could be the decision that saves you so much heartbreak, pain, and suffering. You can get to a better place and what you're doing will help you get there. You're being really brave and I'm rooting for you!