Yeah, I get compulsive with emails too. For instance, I have a friend/co-worker who's been helping me sort through some stuff, including this, and since my intuition is **** right now I feel like I need to stop bugging him. And yet I've expressed the concern that I'm bugging him, and he's said I'm not, and has expressed that he wants to help, and why. But it is so ****ing hard for me to believe it at the moment. I went through so many drafts of one email just to take the acerbity and passive-aggressiveness out of it, and almost stopped talking to him at the beginning of the week because I reacted to something really stupid.

I have to continuously talk myself out of reacting like that now and remember to review actual evidence, because it's all I have. And that upsets me. Because I'm not even sure if I am perceiving the evidence correctly, and my brain just gives me all possibilities for what it means or implies...and everything just gets ****ed.

So why do you try to stop emailing people?