Hey, I totally empathize with your situation. You're in a spot now where the duration of all of this forces monitoring and enormous amount of control over your life and well being is about to come to a close. I can imagine that must bring on so many different feelings reflecting on everything you have accomplished, endured, and how you want to reclaim your personal choices in health matters, and really very personal ones too..such as socially drinking. It will feel good to not be under so much watch at all times, but I can understand why what she said made you feel the way it did. Ultimately people judge, and by those judgements dole out advice, information, behavior, all based on there perception of what's going on. In that particular situation it seems like she just treated you as a patient. Which often in many situations is not being treated as an equal. Which, sucks, and feels really terrible. Especially when your looking for feelings of trust, encouragement maybe outside of ****ed up things that happened. Because those things aren't all of you!

It seems like your about to have a breath of fresh air, lots, and your life back on your terms. Congrats girl. From all you seem to care about I hope you get to have a little chill fun, take time to come with some constructive ways to share yourself and if being bipolar can be a part of you that you share too, that would be awesome! Once your in the ear and not feeling scrutinized again because your about to have your freedom again, other negative emotions and states of being caused by this experience will also fade. You should feel so proud of yourself!!!