Thanks so much to everybody who replied, you are all lovely. I'm based in the UK so to get a new T privately would cost around £60 a session. I just can't afford that. Our NHS healthcare is a wonderful thing in many ways, but sadly mental health is not given the importance it should be. I actually counted myself extremely lucky to get the help I did - it was straight away and only £15 per session. I hear horror stories of people waiting six months or more for help.

Anyway, it really calmed me to hear your thoughts. I couldn't help but feel humiliated and ashamed, like I had done something awful. He told me he was upset too and I regret now the way I looked at him as if to say, 'how could you?' That wasn't fair. The benefits of hindsight...