Hi sunny,

Well we did discuss a dream. It wasn't much of one but she likes them so I like taking them to her. I said I had one and that it was very much like another and that some old dreams were recurring recently. We only talked about the most recent one and the one that it reminded me of. She had her eye on the clock then so I didn't mention the others. Even that seemed... flat.

Flat is a good word for how it felt. And of course I think it's all my fault.

I guess next time if I don't have something specific to talk about I will just pick a point in my life and talk about that time period.

I said at the end that I sometimes think I have to have something big, huge, catastrophic to talk about. She did gently reassure me that I don't, that anything is useful.

I guess I can just "let" her have a bad hour.

But I can't. I keep rehashing last week... did I say something horrible? There are several things I can think of that I thought were horrible about me that I talked about. What if she thinks they are too?!

I may have to use that cell phone number of hers this weekend... She answers that/checks those messages more often than the answering machine where I left a message.

Thanks for replying, sunny, and for your kind words about my posts.


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