We've had only a couple bad sessions, a couple sweet sessions, but wildly inconsistent otherwise. I've tried returning to the core problems that I presented at first session but she says We need to analyze your childhood conflicts to get better.

All this makes me cry. She doesn't want me to get better. She wants me dependent on her. I can't prove that of course but I'm losing hope this therapy can be salvaged when I'm not being heard.

You had the opposite experience where you were terminated and that is unfair in another way. There is a problem whenever Ts present themselves as authority figures that declare our wellness or worthiness. We need therapeutic partners in our human growth, not demigods dictating our truths.