For 40 years... I was born male, but never really could feel confident about it. Through my inadequcies, I became a personal porno star male for free hire, ran a bunch of dope, was gangster and mafia, moved on to a monster built construction builder (monster big), became a family man to not mine kids, was a crew boss, business owner in remodel. Still I'm plagued by feelings of lacking. I'm also bipolar1 with multiple personalities that haunt my every move. Why do I feel like Im not "man" enuff. Now that I wrote all that, hmmmm.