I'm constantly comparing myself to my peers and their success. I feel like I'm never doing enough in my life and it's very frustrating. Tonight has been one of the worst nights for me. I was looking through some girls I went to school with and I couldn't help, but notice how they are very social and just going places with their lives such as having glamorous jobs and lifestyles.

My mom passed away about a year and half ago and my dad's heath has declined a lot which has resulted in me dropping out of school(Iim 22) and working full time as a teacher in a day care. I can't help, but feel jealous and wishing I could just do a lot better. I'm also feeling pretty lousy about my appearance lately and just constantly putting myself down. I feel like this is going to drive me crazy. How do I just start being satisfied with my life? I know I have some circumstances that aren't so great, but I wish I could just be happy with my life and appearance. I sometimes get those urges to change like wanting to be more social and be happy with the way I look, but it never lasts. I start giving up and just wanting to stay home all day. How can I finally change? I'm currently on antidepressants and it helps a little, but I still have those thoughts a lot.