hey. yeah, thinking about termination is painful, i guess. to start with i couldn't figure why he said 'a couple of months' but then i realised that if i do this student exchange thing that i hope to do i really will be leaving in a couple of months. eep. i kinda thought... that i could keep working with him when i came back, however :-(

> I would most likely do the same thing you do-- ignore it.

yeah. i just can't see... what else to do about that.

> my reaction was getting that bad... had to switch the subject; never touched upon it again. So I can see what you would ignore it.

yeah. some things are just too hard to talk about / face directly.

> The thing about the therapist leaving as part of the healing process... I would assume that statement refers to a point in which the client has healed sufficiently?

no... that wasn't it. you know... i tried to find the quote via google and i can't find it. i'm thinking Ross might have said it somewhere or other (in his MPD treatment manual) but to be honest I can't remember precisely what he was talking about. it was just something along the lines of how, the therapist had to do to the patient whatever had been done to the patient to %#@&#! them up so bad. i think the notion might have been that the patient will reinact it. over and over lesser variations on a theme. then, eventually, there will be a reinactment. it might have been to do with carthartic reinactment or something. i can't remember. he is probably wrong. i just remember feeling very upset when i read it and the notion has stayed with me ever since.

i don't know if i'm healing. right now i feel that i'm hurting.

:-(