The main thing is you got your worries out of your head. And that's the most important thing. It may seem like you have to put a mask on but, what would happen if you didn't? I know that seems like a strange thought but, what would happen if you just became yourself on the outside as you feel on the inside. But I also know that it's a very hard thing to do, not an easy thing. I'm not even sure I can do it myself.
But that being said so something kind of like an experiment. To test it out for a little bit and by little I mean like 5 minutes at a time. You spoke a lot about two different types of personalities. Which can be difficult to manage but I wonder what's the reasoning behind it. Is there a reason maybe that's a better question to ask with a therapist but still question all the same one that I keep asking myself. Hope this helped.