spent a lot of money to find birth father

he did not reply, probably threw letters from the adoption agency in the toilet

he finally responded to a call from the social worker

stated he has no malice towards my sister and I but he didn't want to revisit the bad memories of his life with us and my birth mother who apparently suffered from schizophrenia.

my sister and I were approximately 2 and 3 years old. What bad memories could we have given him????

i'm just a bad memory to him.

i'm so hurt.