Comparing yourself to an unconfirmed perception is usually not a good habit. If you have these questions and counts why couldn't your associates also have them? Why do you assume perfection?

Committing your life to others could be a noble endeavor. But it sounds like you are ignoring your own needs and that may be unhealthy and not in your best interests.

You seem normal to me. Confused about what your next step in life might be though. Its a perfect time to contact your university and see what services they offer for alumni.