Yeah, so you're not supposed to dwell on the past. You're not supposed to let it affect you in your present life but dammit, it does! All those stupid, dangerous things you did come back to haunt you from out of nowhere. Sleep isn't even safe. Dreams with people from your past taunting you diving into your deepest sleep and you're hell bent to swim your way out of them. How do you get away from that? I suppose you come to terms with the fact that that was you then and now you have a whole new person to deal with, to teach, to learn, to develop and grow. Harumph I wrote about it in my journal but the dream is still haunting me. I'm letting it affect my day. I'm trying real hard not to but every time I turn around there it is.