i cant stand to be around my friend
my close and best friend
and its all cos she does doesnt get it
she doesnt see
she triggers me
omg im horrible
i have to leave i cant even sit in the same room as her
and maybe its cos shes leaving
but i think its more than that
cos i wont even be thinking it
and just the things she says
she puts me down
and yeah she makes it like its a joke
but it is like stabbing me in the heart with a knife
why cant she see
that im hurting
that its not a joke to me
he made me unlovable the monster he did this not me
but im never gonna be loved
no one wants me
i dont even want me
and if i cant love me then no one else can
so what really am i doing here
what am i trying so hard to save
who is this freak that sits here to type away
i dont even want to know