I'm so glad I joined here... This is kind of dissuading all thoughts that I might not be bipolar, because I'm able to relate to most all of this. Not every thread sounds 100% like me, but close enough it's a little scary.

I totally get motivation issues. It seems like I have multiple levels of motivation or lack there of. Sometimes I have all the motivation in the world to do the things I want to do (which aren't necessarily good things always) but no motivation to the the things I have to do. Other times I feel like a lazy pile of crap who can't find the urge to do anything, and I start to think it's just me. Like I'm a pathetic person who just can't be bothered to do anything.