Hi gerber,

Sounds a little better for you today. You've really been struggling.

Keep writing here! Something that helps me is to write, in a journal or notebook or whatever (sometimes I write at the computer and save the draft, coming back and adding to it later)... just to have that release, to put the pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard) and let the thoughts in my mind flow. Anything.. everything... no matter how seemingly small or unimportant or silly or wildly fantasy-like. It is somehow calming physically and mentally for me. Mabye it would help you too.

Here is a site that has a guided imagery, a relaxation exercise. It's free and you can do it right at your computer. It says it is 20 minutes, but it seems like 5 minutes!! It is sooo relaxing! The free one is called Secret Garden and here is the site: www.meditainment.com. Relaxation tapes and CD's are also something I do regularly and help me. It feels so good to get your whole body relaxed!

Please keep us posted on how you are doing!