I'm terrified of a very structured work schedule, embarrassment at work, messing up at work, and having coworkers or bosses dislike me. The weird part is, all of my anxiety is due to work. I don't have these thoughts when I'm out in the general public like at the grocery store or driving my car. My fear is so great about work that I have avoided college and working in the past. Not good! Really trying to change this about myself.
I have no idea why this is such a big deal to me, it really sucks and even though the fear feels very real, I intellectually know how stupid it is at the same time. Scared of embarrassment, messing up at work so I avoid it completely? Not logical, but many times fears aren't very logical.
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"Re-examine all you have been told, dismiss what insults your soul." - Walt Whitman
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or stupidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." - Christopher Hitchens
"I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience." - Mark Twain
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