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Originally Posted by bryanblade
Hello, I'm new here,but this has been bugging me for a while, I just need to get this out of my chest, cuz I have never spoken this to anyone close to me.
Here goes.... "deep breath"
I'm 23 years old this year, I'm employed(prefer not to say my occupation), but I enjoy my work. But since High school and university, I noticed I'm a little.... different from others.
While others have been enjoying the fullest out of their lives, I have been thinking a lot and kept asking questions, and these questions are abnormal.
Like
"What's my purpose in this world? "
"why was I born into this world?"
Ever since then, I've been putting the priority and the well-being of all others above my own. I felt like I don't deserve happiness, I should shoulder the burden of others and make them happy. I could not find a purpose in my life, so I have been focused on a mission to consistently helping others.
I still do enjoy the simplest pleasures in life, but I don't have any infatuations or obsessions. Normally, a person would be happy when they were offered money, but I'm just like "it's just money". That doesn't mean I don't need money, I meant that I only need money to live my life, I do not wish for a luxurious life or a happy life.
So should I be worried? Am I depressed or insane? 
Or I'm just different?  |
BryanBlade, you sound so much like a friend that I know. Other people were amassing fortunes and building houses, getting married and they were working on figuring out the purpose in life. They considered it normal and thought everyone else to be strange not asking those questions.
Someone wrote, the secret to happiness is being happy with just enough.
If you do have issues to work on, I hope you do keep asking what the purpose of life is.
Meditation has provided an avenue for me to take questions like that into meditation and then find a quiet place and listen to see what I hear. Sometimes nothing but sometimes a feeling of well being that really inspired me.
You are comfortable in your own skin. That is a real gift. Thanks for sharing your story.