the experience itself was not probably as bad as I had made it out to be in my head. But it was still supper awkward. To walk into a room of a least five or so people I use to hang out with and now be good friends with to get eye balled with a "no don't even try to talk to me kind of look I mean no lie it does suck. But I want to go to these shows. I want to get the opportunity to potentially start preforming burlesque again and simply cause I as a person got under some people's skin is not really fault.