If i don't put my mask on.. i guess people will see my gloomy serious face...not to mentioned my negative thinking about how so many things annoy me.. During rough day it is very difficult to maintain my office face and people will ask asking what is wrong..it just a hassle to answer those question and i don't want to explain myself to anyone.. I work in IT which is a very good job since most of the time i don't have to deal with unnecessary people and sometimes i will pretend that give my 100% attention to my job so that i don't have to involve in coworker conversation.. (sometimes they will come for some leisure chit chat)... well, the happy me is ok, i can talk about anything with anyone..

lately my housemate decided to start cook her own meal which i have no objection of.. But the things that i don't like is she will prepare the meal for me as well.. Everyone that i talk to says how lucky i am..but i don't feel that way.. I feel like she's violated my personal space..control my life..and i don't like being control.. I know it sound absurbs..but i don't like the feeling like someone force me to do something that i don't want..and i can't say "No" because everyone else thought it was ok and acceptable while i am complaining..so it makes me sound like a very ungrateful person.. But what if i already have what i want to eat in my mind and suddenly she's ruin It with forcing me to eat something else.. but whenever i talk to others, try to justify my feeling..they don't agree with me...