I sort of know it's paranoia but then- It's the truth.

A hyperview. I can feel and hear my heart beating.

People are stabbing me in the back. They act like friends but then again they give off slight hints- they don't like me or they think I am weird/unlikable.

I'll remove them.

It's sort of a feeling inside, can't explain. It's an embarrassment. I hate myself. Though maybe if I wasn't so hypersensitive and didn't fill in the blanks.

I hate this. I hate everyone. I can't talk to doctors or even type here my thoughts because they are bad. They get to melt in my head.