I can relate to what you're going through. I used to have these thoughts a lot - to the point where I asked my husband to hide the knives in the kitchen every night before we went to sleep for fear I'd do something unspeakable.

I discussed this extensively with my therapist, and she assured me that these thoughts, while distressing, are not a sign that I'm going insane or at risk of becoming a serial killer (which I feared). She told me that, the more I try to reject them and "stop thinking" them, the more anxiety they cause because the mind tends to return to them regardless. She advised me to accept these thoughts as they come and detach myself from them.

Don't blame yourself for thinking these thoughts, and remember that even though they're distressing, the simple fact that they are distressing is a sure sign you're not at risk of carrying them out or becoming a psychopath. Psychopaths feel no empathy. They don't feel that their thoughts are wrong.

Stay strong. *hugs*