I write under a pseudonym here, but my professional activity is pretty public (products that get reviewed online), and I also blog. Recently, I've started having a ridiculous fear of Googling my name. I agonized over it for a few weeks, then did it (massive, massive anxiety attack happened). All 40+ pages. I found nothing bad. (Some harsh reviews, but nowhere near the calamities I was picturing in my head).

So then I started going back to comments I left on other websites, reading or re-reading the replies. Thousands of them. Including the trolls. There are still some websites I haven't covered, but if I so much as *think* about any of them... massive anxiety happens again, to the point where my throat closes up and my hands are sweating like it's the middle of summer.

I'm fully aware that it's bloody stupid to go to X website I used to be active on 3-4 years ago and track down *every* *single* *comment* just to see what people had to say about it then, but I can't stop obsessing over it. My therapist is conveniently on leave until next week and I have no-one to talk to about this, because even as I type it, I feel very, very silly.

Can anyone else relate to this, even a little bit?