I've been with my current girlfriend for two years now and she is 7 months pregnant. We are expecting a baby girl. I'm 26 and she's 23 so we are both still young. I'm sure I'll get some negative replies to this post but I'm in serious need of advice, good or bad. I'm hoping i don't bore you with details but i would like to give you all an idea of my current situation. I’m not a very good writer so please bare with me.
I have been very good friends with her brother for the past 8 years so I'm very familiar with their family. They love me so when i started dating my current girlfriend they were more than thrilled. I had always been friends with her but never knew her on a personal level. Well we started dating and two months into the relationship she decides to leave me for her on again off again ex boyfriend. Four months later she leaves him and comes to me saying how much she regretted ever leaving me. I was skeptical at first but I ended up forgiving her and took her back. The first year of the relationship was great but I wasn't truly sure i was in love with her. I contemplated leaving her quite a few times but I ended up giving it some time and maybe it would get better. She ended up getting pregnant and I was worried because i wasn’t sure about our future. I figured our love would grow because we were having a child together. I was wrong. We hardly ever fight I just don’t feel a deep connection with her. It feels like we’re friends more than lovers. I’ve felt love before and this is not it. I’m in love with someone else…(I’ll refer to this person as “X” to keep things simple)
About three years ago I met X online and we really hit it off. We had a night out in the city and it was the strongest connection I’ve had with another person after just meeting. We had so much in common, great conversation, plenty of laughs. I found out that she had recently gotten out of a rocky relationship which is usually a red flag that I was going to be a rebound. She told me things like “I’ve never met anyone like you” “You’re the best guy I’ve ever been with” etc etc. She seemed so into me that i fell for her. But she still was not over her ex. She ended up getting back with him and got pregnant a few weeks later expecting a baby boy. Needless to say i was crushed. She thought a child would save her broken relationship. Of course she was wrong. We kept in contact with each other periodically but nothing serious. She was still unhappy with her boyfriend and always told me she wished we could be together but the situation was very complicated with a child involved.
A year later me and my current girlfriend got together. X and I lost contact with each other but every now and then we would talk to see how each other was doing. X had gotten engaged with her boyfriend shortly after the baby was born but no date has ever been set. Her baby boy is now 2 and my current girlfriend is 7 months pregnant.
Two months ago X and I reconnected. X is 23. We talked on the phone all the time. Bringing back old feelings of us both wishing we were together. She wished she would have never left me 3 years ago. We both are having problems in our current relationships. I told my current girlfriend that i was working out of town when actually i spent the night out of town with X. I always wanted to leave my current girlfriend so i did because im in love with X. How can i stay with someone when i have such strong feeling for someone else? X claims to have the same feelings for me but she STILL is contemplating going back with her ex. This situation has been very stressful for both of us because there is so much in the way of us being together. She says shes in love with me. I have a strong feeling that she will go back to her fiance because its the easy way out and its her comfort zone. X and her fiance fight all the time and he is abusive. Even if me and X dont end up together i dont know if i should go back to my pregnant girlfriend or not. Should i try working things out with her for the babys sake? How can i be with her if i know im not in love with her? Should i continue to pursue X if she and i agree that we are each others true love? I know deep down that X wants to be with me but this situation is almost to much for us to handle. Me and my pregnant girlfriend have been broken up for two weeks and she is now living with her parents. I’m very sorry if my post is confusing but i would appreciate any kind of advice i can get.