I've had plenty of notices from the new management here. First one was nice, never had that the owners of this building sent a christmas card. Then, a week later, a paper in an envelope. So, I'm thinking, what is this.. feeling a little dread as I know they are upgrading some apartments and selling them as condo's. Thankfully, it was just a statement of what was paid in rent over the past year. Never had that before either. Then about 3 days later, another envelope under the door. I'm thinking what the heck. It was "the rent is increasing by such an amount"... this was getting me upset as I already pay more than I can afford, but I manage it. Then, another few days and another envelope. Inspection in a little over 24 hours. Thank you. Gee they really no how to get people a bit frustrated. So today I'm up early and want to clean, its not really bad but I don't like random people coming in to my home and looking around. Already had that last year, and the guy took pictures (new owner management), but they didn't explain that to me, and I find that offensive. Because they don't need pictures of my things.
At least it was very tidy then. I've been very tired and sore and don't have the energy to make the place look real nice.

Ups, yesterday I went to church and caught up with a nice friend. I went to walmart and bought an orchid. I've never had one, I doubt it will survive long because of our winter with not much sunlight. I made my mom laugh, which for her is rare in her life, because she had depression and major anxiety her whole life, well at least from my life and what I know. But she won't change her thinking, and never would. Always looking at the negative. I swore I wouldn't be a mom like her, and I'm not. So I have to get out of my thinking that everything is depressing. I don't like pills, and I don't like the side effects, but I think there isn't a choice at the moment. I don't know, I wasn't bad with a smaller dose of quetiapine for sleep and 5 mg of diazepam, but lately I have been using the antidepressant and I don't want to depend on it. It's drying me out like nuts.

Well I've had my coffee but I wish someone could force me to go finish the dishes and get the vacuum running. And eat breakfast, yuck.