Hello,
recently just diagnosed with bipolar. I was severely depressed for years, last semester i COMPLETELY SWITCHED. Instead of being depressed, not wanting to attend classes, do my homework, staying in bed all day I had this GREAT burst of energy. I started to become so happy and productive. I went from barely passing classes to getting 4.0s in all of them, it was the happiest i've ever been. I never thought anything of it until people starting pointing out to me how random and fast my thoughts were. My friends didn't understand how we could be talking about something and literally 2 seconds later I bring up something so random. they used to make fun of me and say "haha ADD", things like that. Besides that I realize I literally talk a mile a minute and totally interrupt people all the time. People began to think I was just rude. I didn't realize how irritable I was until I went home for break from college and I literally couldn't be in the same room as my family for more than 5 minutes without getting agitated and causing a fight. This is when I realized something wasn't normal. I went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with bipolar, suggested medication but i refused. I LOVE BEING MANIC! I get soooo much done and it feels great. However, my doctor said I will eventually crash and it will be bad? Is this true? I believe I may be crashing now because this weekend I did some sexually impulsive things, and am so ashamed. My self esteem is going down by the minute and I believe everyone is staring/talking about me. I'm really nervous because this is a new thing for me. Please give me some feedback.