The mania is great but when the laughter stops things are very different.

If you aren't happy with the diagnosis please consider getting a second opinion. What you describe is what many people living with bipolar go through.

I was also recently diagnosed bipolar after fighting with major depression for a long time. My manic episodes were never that severe but I did get into some financial problems, lost my work due to impulsive decisions and extremely volatile temper. I also managed to wreck my marriage and went through two failed relationships after that. All of this while being undiagnosed.

I'm on medication right now and I hate the idea of it but I'm living a better quality of life overall. Anxiety and depressive episodes aside.

Please consider some support system at least if you don't want to go the medication route. Also look at your diet and sleeping patterns. Folinic Acid, Magnesium and Omega 3 will help with brain function also. Spend time outside as much as possible and make sure you have some sort of routine in your life. Exercise and find somebody you can talk to about all of this. It will help and you will have a good life.