So I got diagnosed with major depression after being admitted into a hospital for suicidal intent. Well, while I was in there they put me on an antidepressant that is suppose to be a sleep aid as well, because I was only getting a few hours of sleep a night. Four days being on it and all of sudden everything is amazing and I have enough energy to run a marathon. I was still in the hospital during that time. The nurses started to really worry and even ordered an anti-psychotic one night because I refused to go to sleep. That made me a zombie the next day. The psychiatrist discharged me a few days later, even though I was jumping up and down, not able to focus, just being overall crazy. On my discharge date, he finally really noticed that I was literally jumping off the walls and the other patients explained to him that it has been going on for days and he started to get worried. He decided to let me go, as my mom traveled 2 hours to get me, and said that I needed to return if it continued. Well, that was like a week or two ago and I am still running on full with little to no sleep. Personally, I feel great, like I am reading like 70 pages a day of my textbooks, drawing again, biking, like doing everything I had no energy to do before. My friend a few days ago brought up that I could have bipolar disorder, because I showed a lot of the symptoms for it. After discussing it with her, we spotted a cycle of manic to depression last year that lead me to my hospitalization. During the summer I was pretty manic, planning to bike 200 miles a week and had a whole plan to lose 20 pounds get a six pack, train my dog for obedience competitions and a bunch of other projects. Well when school came in I got depressed that I did not finish my projects, got stressed from the work, and ended up close to committing suicide and then ended up at the hospital. My mom is taking me to my new office and changing my meeting date for my psychiatrist to as soon as possible, because she can't take it anymore. I personally love myself like this because I have more energy than I have ever had! Meds are just controlling devices. What should I do about this? Did anyone have this happen to them?
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I appreciate your help.... But even you can't save me from myself.
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Med cocktail:
Geodon 40 mg
Dapakote 1500 mg
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